sushi dinner and a lil bit of shopping

I went to sushi tei for dinner ( I didn't exactly having sushi, I had a plate of tempura maki only. Usually I'm having plenty. haha. I had the yasai itame and the salmon teriyaki), then across the street there's this factory outlet/boutique so I went for a bit of shopping :)


HAPPY :)

what I bought

When you guys do visit Bandung and have meals in Sushi Tei, check out the factory outlet across the sreet. It has a bunch of collection of cute casual wear:D

Excuse the poor picture quality, I should've brought my SLR Canon camera:(

His Shoes = My Giant Shoes

Wow, I never realized my boyfriend's shoes size is big... Now, I feel TINY!! :)

What a FRIEND...

I believe that we cant find a bestfriend, not a close friend, but BESTFRIEND, easily. A person with ability to accept whoever you are, and believe you and be there for you when everybody turns against you.

I have this friend and we've been really close. I never see her again from the day I went to Singapore, but I met her recently. It's weird that she seems to avoid all my calls and my texts. Turns out, a friend told me that some people told her that I was spreading rumours about her. Well, I was in shock because I didn't even start it, I didn't even know! I heard people telling me bad things about her, like, everybody back in high school but back then, I didn't even believe it. But now, she didn't even ask me what happens and she judged me like that. I know everyone's talking, but hey, I KNOW I DIDN'T. I've been hanging out with a bunch of different friends that don't even know her. What's the point? I explained to her but she didn't believe me. What a friend, right? I didn't push her to believe me, I've explained that's it. She asked me to meet her and some people who told her, but what's the point. Somebody told me to grow up and talk to her, and better be enemies with those bad people. But WHAT'S THE POINT? I don't want to give a damn about things I don't even know. I know I'm right, and I'm not the one who supposed to chase her around and say SORRY. I'm going to remain silent, do nothing, and for those who wants to give a damn about that, be it. Go ahead. But not me.

Anyway, my bestest friend is coming in July. YAYYYYY:)

Now, she's a BESTFRIEND. And I really really miss her.

I'm back:)

hi...
I've been soooo very busy these past few weeks I didn't have time to update my blog, I didn't even have time to relax!!Now, I'm back and have a few stories about bullying and recovering from anorexia..

tell u bout it later:)

How anorexia ate me up

Read my previous posting about how I love Starbucks? I didn't even dare to eat ice cubes that made from water at the time I was anorexic. I know I was anorexic when I read The Olsen Twins on some magazines about Mary Kate Olsen. I didn't want to be that way forever. I exercised excessively, I ate only one orange and a bowl of papaya a day, I always exhausted and the hunger made me feel cranky all the time. I isolated myself for a long time. I didn't have the power to walk up the stairs but I do feel pump up to exercise. I see thinness but I feel fatness all over me. I went for aerobics and fitness six days a week, three hours a day. I never go out because I was afraid to eat. I was scared and felt alone. At that time, nobody understands me except for my Mom. I didn't want to see my friends because they always told me to eat something. I got angry at them for just doing that. I wasted almost three years of my life doing those daily routines of just exercising, isolated myself from friends and eating, never go out and being cranky and scared and angry. Can you imagine that? Now, I felt so sorry for those who gets the same eating disorder as I am. It's not something that you can just leave. You have to build a strong mind and soul. Otherwise, It will come and eat you up again. Even when you're healthy again, sometimes it comes and surround you. I'm tired of it and now, every single day, I talk to my mind " you're young, you still have your chance to build yourself up again, being beautiful and you're not fat, you're just the right size, you already exercised a lot and you will never ever get fat". It works and I'm still working on it. Oh, did I told you that I also having a hard time breathing at the time? and also my heart beats sometimes slower than usual and then just go faster and faster until I sweat like crazy? well, it happens. What worse is that my weight went down from 47 to 35 kg. And when I moved to Singapore, I didn't see my therapist, trying to survive by myself and because of the crashing diets, I ended up putting on weight soooo fast that I gain so much til 60 kg. It was a nightmare.

NOW, I am 48 kg, eating right, and building a beautiful mindset.

For those who their loved ones suffering, please get help as soon as possible. I've been through hell and it was not pretty at all. I was in desperate need of help.

Last weekend

Last Saturday, I went to PVJ with my boyfriend and I had a really great time. Movie marathon. It's sooo good. After watching Fast & Furious, we decided to watch Monsters vs Aliens. Two different exciting movies. Afterwards, we went to dinner. The next day, we also went to watch Slumdog Millionaire. It's a great movie. It's beyond great. Really heartbreaking and breathtaking. I love this weekend. And sigh, it's Tuesday already and I have a lot of design assignments:(
I have this class, the 2D design compositions and the lecturer's not cool. I always attend the class, but she didn't take my attendance twice, and refuse to declare it with the administration people. It wasn't my fault, and if I failed her class, it's her fault. God, living in Indonesia is so different with mine a year ago in Singapore. The university? I give a thumb down.

she's sooooo cool!!

Everyone, I think you know who she is... If you dont, ouch! how sad.
A really really edgy and fashionable girl, AGYNESS DEYN. She's soooo cool I wish I can pull such an edgy style like her. I think she's the hottest supermodel I've ever seen.