My Oooh My

OH MY GOD....

I'm soooo soooo upset today. Why? 

It's all started a week ago. There was this new member at my aerobic place. And guess what??? SHE SMELLS SO DAMN BAD!! I don't mean to be a bitch, but come on. It's a public place and she should respect other people by putting some effort to buy deodorant. She annoys me and a lot of others. To top it up, she showed up like she hasn't shower in ages. And like she never wash her hair since kindergarten. OH MY!! YOU'RE A GIRL!! I want to tell that in her face. But scared if she's psycho or something. And guess what? She always always always trying to be in the front row and squeeze in between people. There's a lot of older women saying mean things about this girl but I know it's not their fault. I have a friend and she's so damn quiet but she also saying things about this girl. OH YEA!! IT'S THAT BAD!!

HELPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ties The Knot

It's every girl's dream : having found the right match, being so in love at the point that you're always lovesick but can be yourself every second without being ashamed of your silly behavior, got engaged and get married ( then have cute little kids :) ).

My wedding dream is just simple, I've been dreaming getting married in Bali when the sun is setting in the background, in a nice chapel, attend by just family and close friends. I've seen some extravagant weddings, in big hotels, thousands of guests, mega expensive meals and celebrities. I never wanted one of those. I just want a simple wedding, where I wear a pretty and simple white dress, walking down the aisle towards my husband to be, holding a bouquet of fresh flowers. Our families and close friends smiling looking at us. Then when we exchange rings and vows, the sun setting beautifully, then we have nice meals. That's it.

I never dreamed and imagined this before until I meet you, honey:)

I love my William.....

The picture of my dream wedding chapel, Conrad Hotel Bali

3 Hours of Sleep

Huh, I miss my usual sleeping time : 8 hours. I've been having trouble sleeping lately and it ruins my mood, ruins my aerobic and ruins my eyes. I have bags under my eyes. I look soooo old:(

My Life is a Movie

I think my life is a movie and God is the director. I find a lot of obstacles and antagonists in my life. But God, a wonderful and great director he is, made me through those rough roads and I survived. I am an Oscar winner in heaven because of Him, and my Dear Father keeps walking with me through my every step and he held me up when it goes too hard. 

I've found my all

It's always sweet to be with somebody. In this case, I am so grateful that I have find my everything. I say that because in my boyfriend, I find him as my best friend, my brother, my leader and my soul. I love him so much that I care so much about him. We're happy together and there's this long road ahead us, sometimes there are bumps, but it's okay. We always face everything together. I'm so attached to him that I miss the time when I'm not with him. I miss him now even though today I spent the whole day with him. This is why I am sooo certain that I can spend the rest of my life with him. 

The one I was once watching in OPRAH

Finally I can enjoy food on birthdays:)

Oh, I forgot to tell you. Once I watched Oprah doing interview with two women. One was the one who suffering anorexia at that time, and the other was the one who recovered from it. The first woman was so skinny she had to shop in the kid's department. Her son, who was 5 years old at that time said, "I don't want Mommy to be like that. She's always too tired to play with me, she often forgets to pick me up at school. She looks like she's going to die. I don't want her to die. She used to be pretty, you should see her before looking like this. Mommy, I want you back" :*(

And I thought, MY GOODNESS! 

Then the other woman. She said she still thinking about food all the time. And guess what? Her 7 years old daughter, she does a diet. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? I was eating ice cream and french fries when I was her age. She points to people who's fat in the streets. OMG!

See?? Eating disorder is a big problem. I hate it so bad and I feel bad for those who suffer from it. I lost my 3 years of my youth. Whoever reads this shouldn't!!!!

Oh yeah, I also read in Girlfriend or Dolly, I didn't remember. A girl suffered TEN YEARS of anorexia, lost half of her hair, have troubles breathing and having heart attack, malfunction of liver. Poor girl:( 

Recovering from EVERYTHING:)

If you are special in a way, sometimes some people just jealous at you and would love love love to bring you down. I think it's natural in a way because some girls just tend to have jealousy one another. But sometimes their crucial comments just get to you. This morning I was doing my aerobic, then afterwards I heard a group of high school girls behind me talking. "I'm fat! I'm fat! Do you think I'm fat?" "No you're not. Oh wait. See that girl in that orange shirt? She's so skinny. I wanna be like her!". And right away I know that THE GIRL IN THE ORANGE SHIRT is my friend, and I think she's a model and she's super skinny. It's impossible if it's not genetic that we'll have a body like that. 

I think girls should realize that we have different shapes and sizes. We have different looks, we have different lives. And we are all BEAUTIFUL. We are special in a way and we should not talk trash about other girls. I mean, as a girl you will be upset if someone says bad things behind your back. We have to be thankful for what we are. We're going to live just once, and we have to live to the fullest.

THAT'S what I learn recovering from anorexia. I know that my super skinny body didn't make me happy. Being in love, hanging out with friends, eating good food, doing sports and make friends, shopping, and not thinking about body and weight all the time is the happiness beyond words and beyond everything. I love my life:)